There are three common emotional tolls a diabetic goes though:
1.) The most common emotional toll we get is what I call a "lala land attack" (LLA). Properly known as the "burnout phase" where a diabetic throws their diabetes out the window & only focuses about living their life. I get this way about twice a year. Usually my BGs have been out if wack for a couple of days or I've been trying my best to no avail. Diabetes is bipolar. & at times dislikes you & has a mind of its own. It's likes a diabetic breakdown that takes over our common judgements as far as diabetes control & management. We tend to act like a non or borderline diabetic. Not checking our BGs regurally, or doing WAGs (Wild A** Guesses) more then normal. To sum it up its a very had time for a diabetic.
2.) The second toll is more of getting your hopes up for nothing feeling. It's when we visit our Endocrinologist! I go to my endo Michelle Hemrick every 3 months. I go to see my pump specialist, then her, then the dreaded Blood Work! As diabetics we always anticipate our A1C (average blood sugar over the 3 month period) results. We are curious how this result varies from the last. On 1/19/14 was 6.3 (which is awesome!) & on 5/1/14 it was 7.4 (according to my endo it's "fantastic"). Even though it was still great, I was upset because it went up 11 points. The blood work tests more then just A1C & if some of the results aren't good you get upset over that too. For instance, the amount of protein in my kidneys is always tested & my level was 139 (<30 is perfect) so that's no bueno! That upset me because it was 35 this time last year! Being upset over results also can lead to LLA.
3.) The most vital thing a diabetic needs is support. This is always a touchy subject. Diabetics are typically in a non diabetic family. And every member thinks there the smartest thing ever. Y grandmother bless her heart tries to help, but she can can be overbearing at times. At family gatherings my family watches me when I get food & look with disdain at my plate when I sit down. I nibble at gatherings now (lol). Our families do mean well & wants us to live a long life but their love tends to be taken harshly. My family taunts me with the thought of dialysis trying to scare me into being better. I pay no mind. I know that I will never be that way. Just because I eat 4 slices of cake a year doesn't mean I'm doomed. Were the victims if this disease not them...
No matter how hard we try we can never be perfect diabetics. I encourage anyone who is in emotional chaos to join a support group on Facebook. These groups are very supportive, understanding & care. They can relate to your pains. The group I suggest is the Insulin Addict's Support Group. Run by myself, we have 150 some members & are continuing to expand! I can't undue to join our family :)! We have BG roll calls, weekly group conversations & daily discussions.
Remember, test, eat, repeat!
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